I'm so unmotivated to study now. I'm like sick and tired and stress and pressured. I took very very long to do my H2 math qtns. It seems to me that i'm like the most dumb person in class. OMG la. T.T I'm so sad i dont know what to do anymore. I feel slightly better, i just looked up some motivation things from tumblr <3

okay, i got to start believing in myself. EVERYTHING IS POSSIBLE. I should complaining that i have no time when i spend all my time on fb. FML. I have to get organised. 

 omgggggggggg.. damn fucking stressed. Like really. i dont really swear nowadays but really. I'm damn screwed now.

freaking YTSA is so demanding now. Adding to my burden of tough trainings and hectic JC life. I DO HAVE A FREAKING LIFE. Which i know i shouldn't have one because i'm in JC, just chiong these 2 years and be done with it. Omggggggg. YTSA YTSA YTSA. FML. 


I AM REALLY BUSY. 
I HAVE A SOCIAL LIFE TOO. OMG, FML. 



ytsa is really taking up a lot of time. Should i just give up ? But i have not even tried it out :/

Yo yo yo, okay, i'm trying my best to manage staying up to study. HAHAHAH. Okay, it's not that bad. I dont think i got any homework. I have Chinese Project to do, Econs project to do, PW to do. I ended Touch Rug at about 7.30 and i ran another 2km after that. I reaached home at 8.30. I think i gotta learn to make sacrifices Like not fb so much. Okay, it's not that bad for now. HHAH. I'm gonng study in 10 mins. Which is 10 pm YES, I'M GONNA STUDY AT 10PM. WOW. Yeap, welcome to a JC life. Yeap, this is just the beginning <: Aww >: Juan kept correcting me earlier during training, i felt like i was the lousiest player or something. KNS. >: okay, train harder <: Was very very very very very distracted during training today. LIKE BIG TIME. OKAY. DEL YOU SUCK. hahahhahahaha. I need to learn to ignore certain things. Okay, like this and that. yahhhh. Cool. I feel that sports is very important in anyone's life. It shows your true colours. It's true. When we were training for 2 V 1 earlier, the defender was charging towards me and i felt pressured and i stopped completely and toss the ball like literally so it spun like some windwhirl in the air. It shows that when i feel pressurised, i can't manage it well and will be very flustered ://// DAMN BAD. I'm gonna change it. YES, STAY CALM AND TOUCH <:

okay, 5 more mins, gonna stalk fb and then STUDY !!!!!!!!!!!!

I'M SO TIRED.

okay, today's friday. Thank God. Like srsly. hmmmmmm, well, this week past really quickly. And in a blink of an eye, i changed my candy. LOLOL. To a better one, one that is off limits and not within my boundary, so if sonic boy and i become friends. HAHAHAHAH, wow, the sky drops. I dont give a shit about fake plant rice anymore. Like srsly.... I was wasting my time. Yeap, she was right. Time wasted. HAHHA. At least i wont go crazy. Maybe if i stared at him long enough, i'd faint. Say about 5 mins. Okay, eye contact, 1 min and i'll blush red and laugh. no, wait, maybe i would if it was 2010, but now it's 2011. Nope i'm not going to blush red, maybe pink. HAHAHAHA. and i'll not laugh. I"ll carry out a normal conversation just as it is. WOOHOOO. okay, i'm just paraniod and insecure okay.

omgosh. I dont even know why I AM SO INSECURE. Like srsly. Whatever.
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Now with serious matter :
- i think i talk to guys better than talking to girls. WHY ?!?!?!
- I think i need to be cool in all circumstances.

(btw, i just spoke to Diane ! omg, miss you like crap. WHY THE HELL IS EVERYONE IN AUSTRALIA ???????????? OMG)

- I need to smile more to people because i look too dao/ scary.
- i need to stop showing my feelings everytime.
- i have to ADAPT. OMG ! THIS IS NOT FREAKING PL ANYMORE. PPL ARE DIFFERENT HERE. OMG.


i'm going to watch black swan now. WOOHOO.

SONIC BOY IS DEF. WORTHY TO EYE ON.

I'M SO OVER AND DONE WITH BITCHES. WHY CAN PPL JUST SHUT UP, SOMETIMES AND KEEP COMMENTS TO THEMSELVES. OR ATLEAST FREAKING APOLOGISE FOR THE HURT THEY DID TO OTHERS. OMG. i feel like a loser. i dont know why i feeling this way, i mean i know i shouldn't feel.
I'm so awesome. I'm in touch rugby, it's a niche CCA, i have a goal in life, i know my plans, i just have to stick with it. i know i know i know. But there are things which i just dont know. People. It's a difficult subject to touch on. I SWEAR. i'm always encountering such people. I'm gonna have to lose some pride and steer clear of bad influence. i need to live my next 2 years peacefully. it's only the freaking 5th week of school ! I CAN DO THIS. I NEED TO DO SOME PLANNING OVER THE HOLIDAYS <:

Alright, i'm quite happy today. <: I rested today. I WENT SHOPPING. OMG SHIT. HAhaha, and i bought wrong size again, i need to go back to town and return it tmr. HEHEH, excuses ~~ I'm going to do hardcore revision tmr. WOOHOO ~~ 

Econs - my sister is going to help me.
Maths - i'm helping myself
Chem - woohoo
Geog- woohoo ~~ <:

YAYAYAYA. OMG OMG OMG. DO WELL FOR PROMOS, DONT RETAIN. GO SMU FULL STOP !  

omg, i'm so shagged. so tired. i'm going to sleep now. i have h2 maths tuition tmr. omg, so exhausting. and i'm going out in the evening. wtf, i'm not going out on sunday. it's enough, i just wanna stay home and study and rest. Monday comes PE and wednesday training and thursday PE and friday training. We are getting tougher and tougher now. I can't really grasp the fun touch thingy. HAHA.
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i'm so sick of nasty ppl, can't they get a life. HUH ! WTF DO THEY WANT TO MAKE A BAD IMPRESSION ON THEMSELVES. OMG, EFFING RUDE PPL SHOULD JUST EAT SHIT AND DIE. I'M SO DONE DEALING WITH THESE PPL. KARMA I TELL YOU. AND IT HAPPENED ONCE, I'M SURE IT WILL HAPPEN AGAIN. JUST WAIT AND SEE.
yeah, bitch ? let the game begin. i'm just gonna sit back and relax. L.E.P.A.K. hohoho.

Just like they say it. Urgh, Being in a JC is definately tougher than expected. It's toturing to sit through lectures after lectures trying to absorb everything so that you dont have to waste the already pathetic amount of free time you have to re-study it whhile others revise it. It's really a level up in life, it's so different from Secondary education. I think i'm suited for JC. I'm up for the mugging, i hope :o. It just turns me off to know that there are really people in this world that will talk you down to make themselves look good.

Thank God for Gen and Dav and Vic and the rest of the few 4B1 ppl in SRJC. Okay, so basically, it's just 4B1 in SRJC, because i dont really see the rest, so i feel better. HAHAH. Breaks are really precious. I'd go to the library alone to study (hint hint: i feel like a loser, sometimes) I really wanna do well !! i feel pressured.
On the brighter side, the reasons why i like SRJC for now:
I really do know quite a number of ppl, so i wont feel bored and i can just go and talk to them. Like if i'm ever alone, there will always be someone i know somewhere. HAHA. I'm really happy for that fact <: I have so many happenings : okay, to me there's quite a lot okay. Plant rice. omg, idk what but he still attracts me. HAHHA. but i really tried to avoid him, just because. HAHAHAHAHAHHA. okay, wtf. whatever. i'm just crazy and paraniod and weird. shit la, he's not that cute anymore, i just saw some pictures. Find a new target la del. AIya, wtf, just study la, at least will have outcome between my books and i.

I have geog test tmr and i haven't study idk what i'm doing here typing. oh fml.
i'm just shagged from all the work and stuff.

touch rugby is fun.all i wanna do is just be in the school team and play in the naitonals and train hard. i'm gonna ignore any future politics and be the one that dont know anything. YAY ME. hehhehehehe. shit la, i should have just bought the yellow boots. the white one that i bought is really ugly.

but my bag made me talk to a guy called ryan...... yeahh.... HAHAHlmao, it's quite hilarious. i think he's either really happy i got the same bag as him or he's just being sarcastic that we have the same bag. HAHAH. but he's nice.

omg, i'm so retarded. i'm gonna study now. BYE.

update on vietnam. WTF, he's not vietnamnese. I fail terribly. WTF. LMAO. Damn funny shit okay. He's so cute. He's like awesome. He'e WOAH. I like. Period.

I GOT TO STUDY BYE..... I need to stop dreaming about plant rice from now on. HHE.